The Journey...

I started this blog in 2010 under the title "The Fat to Fit Chronicles" to document the training for and completion of my very first half-marathon. My decision to train was the first step on my journey from fat to fit. In my former life I was 319 lbs, depressed, and living a "less than" life.

Over the course of training I discovered a passion for fitness and helping others. So this blog has morphed into something more than just my musings and venting. My hope is that when you leave this blog you have learned something or picked up something valuable to aide you along your own journey.

So mount up, Posse, and let's go from Fat to Fit!!



Monday, April 25, 2011

Looming in the Shadows

"Two things scare me. The first is getting hurt. But that's not nearly as scary as the second, which is losing."--Lance Armstrong 

Since the day I started this journey one fear has loomed in the shadows. No matter what training plan or course I took on the one thought that reverberated through my mind was "Don't get hurt." I have heard one too many stories about people who suffer an injury then fall back into unhealthy, sedentary habits or who no longer expect victory because of physical limitations. I've held back pushing myself too hard with running because of my fear of injury. So, I have to laugh at the irony of my current situation. I didn't injure myself while running or doing Insanity, a 60-day conditioning program by Beachbody. No heroic story of me tumbling down a hill midstride while on an 8-mile run through the urban oasis of Nashville. . .Nope.

The real story: I twisted my knee while line (or "twine") dancing in flip flops on vacation--no alcohol was involved. The last jump I've been able to do was for the poolside rendition of  the Macarena. To add insult to injury I walked around Downtown Disney on a bum knee for at least two hours. And now I'm sitting here trying to figure out how much time I have to recuperate so that I can finish training for the 13.1 Chicago.

This is where the lessons I've learned over the past year are tested. The first couple of days I was afraid but now I'm all about devising a plan of action because I know that a sedentary life is not for me. I know that I'm not the same person, so that fear has no place to take root. I know that I'm not a quitter, so NOT shooting for completing the race is not an option. Even if I am not 100% by race time, I'm going to stand on that starting line and give it my best shot. I have looked forward to this race since last October and have had a vision of my family sitting along the course supporting me.

So, I will back off a little and allow my knee time to heal. If I don't feel any better by mid week I'll make an appointment with my doctor and go from there. Whatever happens I am no longer afraid of the "What If" looming in the shadows. What if I gain back all that weight? What if I can't run anymore? What if I never get any smaller? What if. . .What if. . .What if I choose to live in victory and not defeat? What if I focus on my possibilities and not my limitations? What if I take each day as it comes and just be grateful for the course thus far? Shadows aren't so scary.

To become a member of Jenita Lawal's team, please visit www.beachbodycoach.com/fitgirlposse  and sign up for a free membership. To view the Fit Girl Posse run/walk schedule, visit http://www.fitgirlposse.com/ . Follow us on Facebook at www.facebook.com/fitgirlposse  Be Fit4Life!!

1 comment:

  1. You are an incredible inspiration! I'm so proud of you and how far you've come! Rest up and then rock this thing, girl!

    ReplyDelete